YOU ONLY LIVE TWICE.

This post is dedicated to contradiction.

Just like white Cartier leather bags and Playboy jogging pants clash together.

Just like a Love Aesthetics post would clash against this one.

Last week I listened to Aaliyah, Missy Elliot and Mary J Blige's albums one after the other; and I was amazed about how all three albums were all about men, love, relationships, disappointment, ecstatic love and just that one crazy roller coaster love can be. We need each other and I think our generation tends (wants) to forget that. Thank heaven cry babies (Lana, Sky...) and lost romantics still exist.

My graduation collection, also based on excessive and obsessive ways of loving, is called "You Only Live Twice" and is as well my way of telling this story about contradiction in a visual way. Life's too short to just be a certain way forever and you live as many times as you want as long as you decide to do so.

My sweet sweet boyfriend and all time photographer is shopping the final selection of the collection's photoshoot next to me as I type this. The shoot took place yesterday and I'M DYING to just let the whole world see it, but I need to be strong and make sure nothing slips through twitter, facebook or instagram....but you all will see them go around real real soon.

Here a sneak peak of what happened; use your imagination for now!

REMOTE.

EVERYONE WHO ISN'T US IS THE ENEMY.

Zara coat, Céline DIY t-shirt, MMMxHM candy wrap clutch, thrifted green silk pants, thrifted Bally boots.

 

Although we're in properly in May already! and we got some sun over here, weather in the NL is not entirely t-shirt friendly yet.

So instead of whining about it, I rather see it as the time to wear all those fly light coats which are too light for winter and too heavy for summer nights. Light and flowy silk pants feel quite appropriate to match with too!

Days get longer and afternoons magical. Just like this royal blue sky, afternoon lighting has been and will forever be one of my weaknesses.

Last night's dreams were a proof to me that from now on I need to start writing AND drawing the shit I design, come up with or say in dreams. Last night was an overload of amazing designs which I saw people wearing, which don't really exist, which means I designed them BUT which I can barely remember. And I recall waking up in between and thinking: I need to draw this right now, and then thinking: nah I'll remember this one....NO YOU WON'T YOU DUMB HOE. Thank god I discussed some of the things I could remember with my BF over breakfast and new lovely ideas popped up.

I also dreamt I shaved my whole head completely and missing my long hair RIGHT away. As this was the highest and most lucid point of the dream I looked the meaning for a britney moment up and this is a symbol of humbleness and humility.

Do I look like I'm faking it enough?
Do you think I'm bitching it enough?
Do you think I'm faking it enough?
Do I look like I'm smart enough?
Do I look like I'm being good enough?
Do you think I am selling out enough?
Am I pushing it too far enough?
Do I look like I'm losing touch enough?

HAIR LYRICS.

DON'T U WISH UR GF WAZ HOT LIKE USSSSSSSSSSSSSS?????????

My sis is on holidays and therefore crashing at my place again.

So this is us being beauty queens, showin what we gots and using hair as weapons of visual mass destruction.

I lost my cross necklace and this makes me really sad.........

But life goes on. I should act as if I never had it. Cause with nothing we come here and with nothing we leave. We don't own anything and nothing or nobody owns us.

SELFLESSNESS.

As you wrap one collection up, half way you start already fantasizing of the next one.

These are some pictures of what might be coming up, or at least the beginning of it .

Dealing with some pigmentation issues on animals, chromosomes and abandoned, worn out church dresses for pre-teenage vapid black girls.

If there's something that school has taught me in these four years is: OKAY, don't give out or explain ALL your ideas, but don't keep them all locked up either. Half of the ideas you have in storage will only florish once you share them.

I honestly CAN'T WAIT to start designing without school's consentment; without feeling like what I TRULLY want to do won't be understood or accepted. Can't wait to trully fuck with people's minds with what's trully inside my head!

CAN WE WANT WHAT WE ALREADY HAVE?

 

 

Just like white fresh new laundry (though I haven't graduated yet) these times start to feel like that SO FRESH N SO CLEAN new start is about to pop a new path right open in front of me; and I can't wait to strut down that motherfucker!!!!!!!!

Last night was really funny, a holy fan hit me up on skype and told me to get my shit together blogpost-wise; "IT'S BEEN OVER A MONTH!" he screamed while clapping his hands. So shout-out to sweet Cole from Canada. Long story short: for last wednesday I had to have 7 outfits ready in front of a really important panel of teachers and guest judges for one of my last school presentations this year! now I can finally breathe again.....for a while.

So here I am, giving spring looks in this shiny grey unborn lamb vest, white turtle neck and light viscose pants. An outfit that, in our borderline daily dutch weather, you could be either happily light and warm enough, or begging you would've worn a coat on top of it all.

Here two of my new favorite releases this month. Both Harlem, NY banjee princesses are about to release even more goodies real soon: Azealia's album 'Broke With Expensive Taste is due this summer and Wavy's mixtape "Schoolgirl Kingpin The Double Sided Tape" could hit the streets anytime from now! though release dates are just as relevant and trustworthy as tabloid gossip, I'll keep on hanging no matter what.

IMPRESSIVE INSTANT.

Patti Smith: Advice to the young from Louisiana Channel on Vimeo.

A FUN PIECE TO WEAR, I SWEAR.

A NEW WEEK STARTS! and although I wanted to drop this ah-mazing mixtape by my bestie Lisa Schaduw just right before the weekend, it's never too late for a sexy beat. This tape has trully had me dreaming of summer, beautiful people, great parties, delish icy cocktails, the sun and penthouse views AHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I never thought I would find the denim jacket of my dreams but, this boxy and perfectly worn-out light blue baby finally crossed my path. If you'd like to DIY a cut out version of your own denim jacket, the only thing you need to do is remove the upper back panel of it (if it has one that is). This is SUCH a fun piece to wear, you all need to start slitting them jackets and get on this!

FURS THINGS FIRST.

pics by Lucci.

This is obvi not real fur, but a damn good substitue in mohair wool with a merged glittery thread. Got it from my bf a long time ago and it's perfect for when you feel like being flashy in a comfy/lazy non-clubby way. Pants are the most beautiful black velvet I ever touched.

This mixtape is exactly how I feel these days; happy, but worried, but dreamy but melancholic.

"Sometimes being really good all the time feels really bad. But I'm on a journey. It's my journey and I'm okay".  

Though I hate quoting Marnie (cause I find her character to be the cuntiest of them all even more than Hannah and Jessa's put together) that sentence talks about doing weird shit at times you're not comfortable with, like making Daft Punk's Harder Better Faster Stronger into an acapella ballad in a room full of strangers. All of this in order to find out what your life sounds like at the moment, and be able to fine-tune it back into a sassy Van Vogue or 1991 kind of tempo. 

Cause if your life doesn't sound like an Azealia Banks single I don't know what you're up to, and I honestly don't need to know either. And if you don't know what I'm talking about that means you're not watching GIRLS and keeping up with our self-absorbed generation. Seriously, stop reading and stream it NOW.

MATRIX MEETS BANJEE.

pics and video by edit genious and sister, Lucci.

If I ever had a reality show the trailer would go something like this!

Just a little gift to the many comments I once got from some of you requesting me on video X

WARNING watch at your own risk: high levels of ratchetness within.

I think each of us as bloggers have a certain power online to build an image and control how people perceive and think about us.

But in my case my dears, it don't get realer than this video!

Oversized has trully become my second skin these days.